im sittin here thinking to myself this morning...(again in my usual monotone) and im wondering to myself about God and his power... are our emotions free will or courtesy of Him? we pray to God for patience and strength and peace of mind and all of that stuff... but yet things happen and we can control our emotions...so which is it?... we can control when we feel lust, we go to anger management to control our tempers ...we take walks to calm down when we cry we crack jokes to laugh WEEE do all this SHIT...to control how we feel... yet at the same time shit happens and we can't help how the emotions that surface... i dont know whether to pray to whatever God that there is or to just emote... theres no answer...it cant be both ... so really wtf?
ADD...
i had a nightmare last night...i was in the shower and suddenly there was blood trickling down my legs and it crept its way across the basin of the tub before swirling into a light pink shadow as it sank down the drain... i pictured it so vividly but there was no cut..just blood leaking from the pores... this is what i get for watching CSI before bed...maybe i really am crazy... i woke up in a panic... i have no desire to die anyyyytime soon... its not 2087 yet so i have some time to go trust me... ive been having nightmares for weeks now... is this God or my subconscious tryna tell me something? whos to say they're not the same?? if there is a God... but thats another post...
ADD yet again... go figure
so i dont have anywhere to download music from... limewires been blocked on my cpu and its remotely plagued with viruses anyway and jamglue has decided to stop lettin me rip music off of famous folk for free so i need a new outlet...
quixotic thoughts and outlandish emotions... im impervious to reality
Jasmin Rose
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
The beginning
so my inspiration for this blog was a simple ride home on the train... i could picture myself speaking in monotone describing what i was seeing as my thoughts traveled through my head...i had an idea for a blog before (courtesy of the o-so-splendifourous Sarah Myanda)...i guess im just looking for an outlet...i cant ever seem to find the right words to say but give me pen and paper and the ink spells out my soul...even now i picture my words as an emotionless voice searching for something...so since i seem to be incapable of screaming my thoughts to the world i'll revert back to my first love in life...my words...
the other day i watched the raindrops splash against the cold roof of the train...it was something so simple but i was so intrigued...the rain hit the roof and shattered into tiny droplets that ricocheted in a million directions...i wanted to be a raindrop...just splatter on the window n drag my way down before sinking within the steel gray concrete on the sidewalk...maybe im crazy...who knows
ADD is kicking in...
i said something (i feel) is extremely profound on twitter today lol...shouts to its creators for making millions off society's lack of ability to stay quiet... i said
Forever is a long time to commit to...and when u realize it is and still want to know forever, it speaks volumes of your soul
poorly worded, it was the simplest way to make my statement within the barriers of twitters 140 character limit.. basically i sat back and thought to myself just how long forever is... theres no end to it...its infinite... it surpasses all human reasonings of time and space... u have to believe in something more than what life appears to be to even start to grasp the concept of forever and i accept that...and now that i have a mere vision of what forever is...i want to Know forever...i have a love in my heart that WILL last forever...its unconditional and it runs so deep within my veins that every beat of my heart flushes my body in fire...i can FEEL this love i have and its gripping my chest so tight sometimes i just .. stop breathing... again, maybe im just crazy
i knew id go crazy with my first blog lol i have so much more to say but no way to organize my thoughts at the moment...add is kicking in again... this is gonna be the draft to the story of my life...
Quixotic thoughts and Outlandish emotions...im impervious to reality
Jasmin Rose
the other day i watched the raindrops splash against the cold roof of the train...it was something so simple but i was so intrigued...the rain hit the roof and shattered into tiny droplets that ricocheted in a million directions...i wanted to be a raindrop...just splatter on the window n drag my way down before sinking within the steel gray concrete on the sidewalk...maybe im crazy...who knows
ADD is kicking in...
i said something (i feel) is extremely profound on twitter today lol...shouts to its creators for making millions off society's lack of ability to stay quiet... i said
Forever is a long time to commit to...and when u realize it is and still want to know forever, it speaks volumes of your soul
poorly worded, it was the simplest way to make my statement within the barriers of twitters 140 character limit.. basically i sat back and thought to myself just how long forever is... theres no end to it...its infinite... it surpasses all human reasonings of time and space... u have to believe in something more than what life appears to be to even start to grasp the concept of forever and i accept that...and now that i have a mere vision of what forever is...i want to Know forever...i have a love in my heart that WILL last forever...its unconditional and it runs so deep within my veins that every beat of my heart flushes my body in fire...i can FEEL this love i have and its gripping my chest so tight sometimes i just .. stop breathing... again, maybe im just crazy
i knew id go crazy with my first blog lol i have so much more to say but no way to organize my thoughts at the moment...add is kicking in again... this is gonna be the draft to the story of my life...
Quixotic thoughts and Outlandish emotions...im impervious to reality
Jasmin Rose
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