Monday, December 27, 2010

finding my own perfection

per·fect

[adj., n. pur-fikt; v. per-fekt]
–adjective
1. conforming absolutely to the description or definition of an ideal type
2. excellent or complete beyond practical or theoretical improvement
3. exactly fitting the need in a certain situation or for a certain purpose
4. entirely without any flaws, defects, or shortcomings
5. accurate, exact, or correct in every detail.
6. thorough; complete; utter
7. pure or unmixed
8. unqualified; absolute
9. expert; accomplished; proficient.
10. unmitigated; out-and-out; of an extreme degree

there are another 12 definitions of Perfect....which got me thinking.. we as people obsess over finding Perfection; perfection within ourselves, perfection in our lives, perfection in our relationships...
but I've realized we're all in search for a word that does not even possess a solid definition. So what is it that we're really searching for?? Perhaps it is a reaffirmation of self-worth, or maybe even the everlasting hunt for the meaning of life. Society has built us to strive for something more as individuals, to earn more money, build upon our education as much as possible, have MORE of anything in order to be SUCCESSFUL... the American Dream is to make money and go to your big house after work and park your car in the driveway and kiss your family hello. People risk death crossing oceans and borders to have a piece of this American dream because to them its Perfection. We spend our whole lives trying to build upon this theory when in reality, we're fighting for a word that doesn't even really exist. The true summary of all of these definitions is essentially the lack of flaws...but a flaw to one person is a wonderful asset to another...so upon finding something that u care about so much so that the "flaws" don't matter to you....haven'[t we all got our own perfections already?

quixotic thoughts and outlandish emotions...
a Rose grows in Brooklyn

Monday, December 13, 2010

questions

is this really what i wanted?
am i as good a person as i claim to be?
what am i doing?
where am i going?
do i care?
do u care?
hell, does anybody care?
why?
what do i want?
is this really where i should be?
is it worth it?
am i right?
am i wrong?
what next?
where do i go?
what do i do?
damn...