take my hand

i was watching 'did u hear about the morgans' (in utter boredom) & one line stood out to me...i cant remember it word for word but it was along the lines of a couple that still laughs together has something worth making work...some shit like that

so i got to thinking

at the beginning of every relationship, its all smiles and laughs...every problem in ur life becomes obsolete and at least for now, the adolescent joy n infatuation u share makes everyday bright...but at some point the smiles fade and the laughter dies down, until one day ur forced to realize when there were more bad times than good...& if u still want it as bad as u did when everything was sunny skies, then do u just need to learn how to laugh again??

im bitter...im broken..n most of all im incomplete....n 12months later i find myself desperately looking for a solution...ive run myself ragged to clinical dismay with no clue as to what to do, say, think to make myself ok...n all the while i look at my inability to let go as a sign that i was right in the first place, n i wasnt crazy for KNOWING who wwas the one...

this is truly outlandish

this surpasses quixotic

and im clearly struggling

impervious to reality

Jasmin Rose

birthday candles

its my birthday ^_^... n i have so many wishes that 23 candles will not suffice... ive promised myself twenty-four hours of happiness...even if its fake, even if its forced...until midnight tonight i will forget all my problems and just be...

which means that tomorrow im goin in on a blog about how i really feel

but until then...candle number one...close my eyes and blow

Jasmin rose