sometimes a trip somewhere new (or even someplace u havent been in a long time) gives u the opportunity to breathe a little bit... u can collect ur thoughts and take a steady inhale and exhale of molecular freedom...its not the same as running away from ur problems, but instead ur purifying ur brain...allowing ur system to cleanse itself for a moment of the toxic reality of the everyday and the steady detoxification of self allows for the regeneration of what once was and the possible founding of what will be... ive had a few days away from "home" and while the four walls that ive resided within for the past 22 years of my life have more often than not caused me to feel as though my every day was a mere millisecond of steady drowning...i cannot breathe... my lungs may not be as starved for oxygen here as they are at "home", but im still gasping... i didnt take this trip to get away from anything or to even ease my mind in the slightest bit...instead i came to spend time with my family (as introduced in chapter 2 and re-introduced in part 2 of "The Search...") i dont find myself caught in an under current though... its funny how people often say their children gave them new life...i babysat my lil brothers today (part 2 of the search) and i was sooo busy with them today that i was barely able to focus on anything else...and the few things i was able to run my mind across were positive in some way shape or form... admist the overwhelming tidal wave of negativity that i've been smacked with the past 7 months and more-so the past 6 weeks..."higher powers" work mysteriously... or maybe its just life... who knows ... im still short of breath tho
ADD? Not this time... instead a Very Special Message for a Very Special Person
im sooooooooooooo sorry Sarah, i know ur awaiting the continuation of "The Search for Something Normal" but i've actually been writing it in a notebook to make up for not blogging since i'm never near a computer when i have the thoughts in mind...i swear the real chapter one is on its way before the weekend is over...
ADD? yes... but not for this blog... id like to know ur opinion on Cougars and men who date women that are young enough to be their daughters cause I SAW SOME MADNESS ON TV TODAY....and im full of opinions...i saw some true fuckery...some TRUE...un-Godly...un-acceptable...fockery...
quixotic thoughts and outlandish emotions...I'm Impervious to Reality
Jasmin Rose
